My Krazy Kandies

Lying Is a Sin

Tobias: *bursts through the front door with this really pissed off look on his face*

Spencer: …

Tobias: What are you lookin’ at, boy?

Spencer: *looks away* *watches him put wood on the fire that is burning fish hearts and livers* You’re not Raphael…

Tobias: Do I look like Raphael?

Spencer: *Long silence* Thank you for burning those… You’re keeping us safe.

Tobias: … Don’t try to trick me.

Spencer: I would never try to trick you.

Tobias: You’re a liar.

Spencer: I’m not a liar…

Tobias: Lying is a sin.

Spencer: I’m not a liar!

Tobias: This would all be over quickly if you’d just confess your sins.

Spencer: I’m not a sinner.

*Tobias is angrily taking off Spencer’s shoes and socks*

Spencer: Th-the lord sp-spake up to Moses; speak unto all the… the congregation of the children of the lord, and tell them; “Ye shall be holy, for I the lord, your God, am holy.”

Tobias: You know Leviticus.

Spencer: I know every word of the bible. I can recite it for you.

Tobias: … Devil can read too.

Spencer: I’m not a Devil. I’m a man, my name is Spencer Reid, and I have a mother and a father just like you, and they taught me the bible! L-let me just… let me just recite the bible, can I just…

Tobias: It’s time to confess Spencer Reid. *hold up this stick/board thing and prepares to beat Spencer’s foot with it*

Spencer: … *makes a face that would go well with a whimper and squirms*

Tobias: *hits him on the bottom of his foot with the board/log*

Spencer: *YELPS*

Tobias: Confess!

Spencer: *strained* I don’t have anything to confess… *YELPS again as he is hit again*

…

I find it rather fail that I have that ENTIRE FUCKING SCENE MEMORIZED. I kinda hate myself right now. FAIL! I know this scene from start to finish. I know a lot of the details, I have the lines memorized… Yea, I need a life.

Sympathy For the Devil

Sympathy for the Devil – The Rolling Stones (Neptunes Remix)

So, I got inspiration from the above song, and I though I’d share my results with you. I hope you enjoy this little story thing I wrote. It really says something about my state of mind. Haha.

Continue reading Sympathy For the Devil…

The Kill

What if I wanted to break?
That is the first line in a song that I have recently become addicted to. The song is called “The Kill” by “30 Seconds to Mars”.
Now, you are probably wondering what kind of significance this has. Well, alot actually. That line got me thinking in odd ways, and I was thinking about my history as well. Doug has taught me a lot, mom has taught me a lot… Everyone in my life has been trying to teach me how to cope, but I reject it.
Why?
This is were the line of the song comes in. What if I don’t want to learn? What if I want to break, just to see what would happen? Would that make me crazy? Would it mean that I would have to be hospitalized for the rest of my life?
I hope not.
Maybe that’s how it is, though. It may sound messed up on all accounts, but I am a messed up person. I want to have these kind of horrible experiences. I wonder awful things like,
“What is it like to be raped? I kind of want to find out.”
“What is it like to die? It sounds interesting.”
“What is it like to be in surgery? I want to know.”
“What is it like…”
These sound like the words of a future serial killer, to be perfectly honest. I know that I would never let myself do that, but I sound like a potential one. I sound bloodthirsty, insane. I feel like some kind of sick and twisted animal when I think like this, but I guess it’s either part of who I am, or something that’s been induced by something or someone.
I watch these shows where people are mangled from head to toe, in emergency surgeries, in the operating room, emergency room… I watch shows where psychotic murderers are caught and put to trial, smiles on their faces and regret nowhere to be seen. I watch things where people are killed for no reason, and all I can think is “I want to know.”
Does this make me some kind of sick, twisted whore for blood?

A Done Deal

It’s a done deal; I’m getting a tonsillectomy on February 24th.

So, me and mom went to this clinic in the middle of Oneonta’s nowhere to see Dr. Sweet, an ENT. We waited a little while, mom did some paperwork and then this nice lady in a green shirt and black palazzio capris called us in. Also, I wasn’t allowed to go into the room by myself because I’m under 18. That’s retarded, isn’t it?

Anyway, she got some info off of me.

-(Have you ever been hospitalized?
Yes.
For what?
I ingested some “Non-Food Material.”)-

Me and mom also stared at the fun posters of ear, nose, and throat infections, decided where acute otosis (or something like that) occurs, and figuring out that polyps can get removed, which sounds like HORROR.

Finally, Dr. Sweet(who is sweet, but not hot. ), came in and gave me a routine check up. Ear, nose(ewww) and throat were checked. He told me that my lymph nodes were quite palpable, which, I guess, means that they were relatively swollen. He told me that my tonsils looked a bit large, and then informed me that a general procedure for such a throat would be to remove the tonsils.

So, I get to skip school for the week after my tonsillectomy. Healing will take a total of three weeks.

And Gina should understand this; do you remember that chapter of “Dr. Grantz is in” when Ulquiorra got his tonsils taken out?

That’s the exact same procedure that they’re gonna do on me.

For those of us who haven’t read “Dr. Grantz is in”, the procedure that they are going to do is different from how they did it ten-twenty years ago. No scalpel!

They take this wand-like thing, and use this plasma-like stuff(very close to a “laser” apparently) and basically melt the tissue and flesh that connects my tonsils to my throat off. It’s apparently less painful that how they used to do it, and I guess it takes less time to heal or something.

But of course, the drawback is that I’m not a kid, so it’s going to hurt like a bitch anyway. Apparently, getting your tonsils removed hurts less when you are a young child (8 and under?), but its like hell once you become an adult. I don’t know how that works, but whatever.

So, anyway, it’s a done deal. I’m getting a pre-op checkup on the 16th so that they can do some tests, and then I’m going to go under the Plasma Wand on the 24th. All of this is taking place in February.

I’m really excited; I don’t know why.

My Tablet Pen

I found it.