Ex Nihilo

We Are The World

In 1985, Michael Jackson arranged a bunch of artists to sing a song to Africa. I don’t know why, but I assume that something happened and they needed support.

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This year, in 2010, there was an earthquake in Haiti. Michael was unable to arrange the artists this time around, since he’s long since dead, but in his memory and to help support Haiti, they did the same song again, with artists from me and Gina’s era. my god, its amazing. Especially the rap part.

Look Mom! No Hair!

I got a hair cut today. Here’s the before picture. As you can see I have rather long hair.

And here’s the after Pictures. As you can see, I have no hair.

It’s awesome!!!

Okay, one more, side view!

It was really cool to finally get my hair cut. I’m actually sick right now, but I forced myself to attend school, because I really wanted this cut. And it came out really good! Mr. Bacon likes it too. Also, according to I think Jane or Ms. Monahan (don’t remember, even though it was today) told me that it makes me look a bit older. The women in the cosmetology lab also told me that the cut really fits my face well, so I’m happy.

Plus, Mr. Bacon likes it.

Lying Is a Sin

Tobias: *bursts through the front door with this really pissed off look on his face*

Spencer: …

Tobias: What are you lookin’ at, boy?

Spencer: *looks away* *watches him put wood on the fire that is burning fish hearts and livers* You’re not Raphael…

Tobias: Do I look like Raphael?

Spencer: *Long silence* Thank you for burning those… You’re keeping us safe.

Tobias: … Don’t try to trick me.

Spencer: I would never try to trick you.

Tobias: You’re a liar.

Spencer: I’m not a liar…

Tobias: Lying is a sin.

Spencer: I’m not a liar!

Tobias: This would all be over quickly if you’d just confess your sins.

Spencer: I’m not a sinner.

*Tobias is angrily taking off Spencer’s shoes and socks*

Spencer: Th-the lord sp-spake up to Moses; speak unto all the… the congregation of the children of the lord, and tell them; “Ye shall be holy, for I the lord, your God, am holy.”

Tobias: You know Leviticus.

Spencer: I know every word of the bible. I can recite it for you.

Tobias: … Devil can read too.

Spencer: I’m not a Devil. I’m a man, my name is Spencer Reid, and I have a mother and a father just like you, and they taught me the bible! L-let me just… let me just recite the bible, can I just…

Tobias: It’s time to confess Spencer Reid. *hold up this stick/board thing and prepares to beat Spencer’s foot with it*

Spencer: … *makes a face that would go well with a whimper and squirms*

Tobias: *hits him on the bottom of his foot with the board/log*

Spencer: *YELPS*

Tobias: Confess!

Spencer: *strained* I don’t have anything to confess… *YELPS again as he is hit again*

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I find it rather fail that I have that ENTIRE FUCKING SCENE MEMORIZED. I kinda hate myself right now. FAIL! I know this scene from start to finish. I know a lot of the details, I have the lines memorized… Yea, I need a life.

Sympathy For the Devil

Sympathy for the Devil – The Rolling Stones (Neptunes Remix)

So, I got inspiration from the above song, and I though I’d share my results with you. I hope you enjoy this little story thing I wrote. It really says something about my state of mind. Haha.

Continue reading Sympathy For the Devil…

The Kill

What if I wanted to break?
That is the first line in a song that I have recently become addicted to. The song is called “The Kill” by “30 Seconds to Mars”.
Now, you are probably wondering what kind of significance this has. Well, alot actually. That line got me thinking in odd ways, and I was thinking about my history as well. Doug has taught me a lot, mom has taught me a lot… Everyone in my life has been trying to teach me how to cope, but I reject it.
Why?
This is were the line of the song comes in. What if I don’t want to learn? What if I want to break, just to see what would happen? Would that make me crazy? Would it mean that I would have to be hospitalized for the rest of my life?
I hope not.
Maybe that’s how it is, though. It may sound messed up on all accounts, but I am a messed up person. I want to have these kind of horrible experiences. I wonder awful things like,
“What is it like to be raped? I kind of want to find out.”
“What is it like to die? It sounds interesting.”
“What is it like to be in surgery? I want to know.”
“What is it like…”
These sound like the words of a future serial killer, to be perfectly honest. I know that I would never let myself do that, but I sound like a potential one. I sound bloodthirsty, insane. I feel like some kind of sick and twisted animal when I think like this, but I guess it’s either part of who I am, or something that’s been induced by something or someone.
I watch these shows where people are mangled from head to toe, in emergency surgeries, in the operating room, emergency room… I watch shows where psychotic murderers are caught and put to trial, smiles on their faces and regret nowhere to be seen. I watch things where people are killed for no reason, and all I can think is “I want to know.”
Does this make me some kind of sick, twisted whore for blood?