Ex Nihilo » Love http://www.kimbabe.com The Universe of K Sat, 24 Jul 2010 19:04:35 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.3 en hourly 1 The Worst Person In The Whole World http://www.kimbabe.com/2010/03/27/the-worst-person-in-the-whole-world/ http://www.kimbabe.com/2010/03/27/the-worst-person-in-the-whole-world/#comments Sat, 27 Mar 2010 23:46:50 +0000 Kim http://www.kimbabe.com/?p=282 It has to be me.

So, I send David an email a little while ago, telling him that I was cutting off all ties because I didn’t want to hurt him anymore than I knew I already had.

I deserve to die. And don’t even TRY to tell me otherwise, because we all know its true at this point. No, actually, you lot of idiots should’ve realized that I deserved to die when I was about six or seven.

I think I’m going to skip school for about a week.

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Damn! Too late! Already fell.

I suppose I realized this when he started dating Lauren. I had a feeling of jealousy that pit itself in my stomach, and I suppose its only recently that I’ve actually started flirting interacting with him, and equally recently that I’ve started to want him back.

I’m pathetic.

Well, I can’t help liking someone, so… Too bad he’s not single.

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…
This year, in 2010, there was an earthquake in Haiti. Michael was unable to arrange the artists this time around, since he’s long since dead, but in his memory and to help support Haiti, they did the same song again, with artists from me and Gina’s era. my god, its amazing. Especially the rap part.

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I wave off her thanks, telling her that ‘it’s nothing’, and head upstairs to my room.
Dear Diary, I write in my head, thinking over the entry before I even have the book out, I couldn’t tell you how much I love her. She is always there for me; she has stolen my heart without even asking! I, however, do not mind in the least. If I wanted to give away my love, she would be the one I would want to give it to.  She is my most precious person.
I am writing now, wondering if I could imitate her pretty handwriting, her lovely signature. I try. I fail.
I don’t really mind; if I and she were the same, I would not love her, because I would be able to see all of our flaws.
She is self-conscious, she doesn’t like herself, she degrades the perfection that is herself. I wish she would stop; I don’t see these imperfections, these tiny flaws that she hates with a passion, and I do not understand why they bother her so much. Why can she not just see what is HER? Why can’t she just see herself for who she is? I love her so much, but nothing I say can express to her what I feel when she is angry with herself.
It’s painful to see someone so perfect see themselves as something so ugly. It is miserable, for both of us. I wish that I could show her the beauty of HER. I wish I could prove to her that she is not ugly, but the purest, more beautiful thing this Earth will ever see.
My sister, why must you hate yourself so?
Because, dearest younger, if I loved all in the world, how could I be called human?
But why, my love, must you choose yourself to be the one that you despise? Why can’t it be someone else? Someone more deserving of such loathing as you bestow upon yourself? Why, isn’t there someone else in this world that you could hate? There must be! I will find someone for you to direct your hatred towards… just please don’t be this way to yourself.
It pains me so to see such a lovely creature burdened and sullied by mere feelings of consciousness. To see her breaking herself down to the barest of herself, just to find the flaws.
Beloved sister of mine, how I love you so. I wish that we could be together forever… Nothing in this world could amount to the feeling I have towards you. I love you, I hate you, I feel everything about you. I wish that we could be together, but alas, we must be apart.
Dearest Regina,
I love you. How I wish that I could show you how perfect you are.

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My post today is about Mr. Bacon, my Global Studies II teacher. He is win. This is why he is so win.

…

*start of the day*

Me: *Runs up and hugs Mr. Bacon*

Mr. Bacon: That’s all you get today!

*Later that day*

Me: *runs up and hugs Mr. Bacon*

Mr. Bacon: You already got your hug today! XD

*Later still that day*

Me: *runs up and SLAM-Hugs Mr. Bacon*

Mr. Bacon: *cough* you already got two today!

…

As you can see, Mr. Bacon is the purified extract of win.

A SLAM-Hug is when you SLAM yourself into someone and hug them. It usually knocks the wind out of them.

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I just wanted to remember and relish in the beauty that I have managed to salvage out of my rather miserable life. Even in my darkest hours, I was able to find him, and I was able to get him.
He’s made me happy, something that I could never have achieved. He helped me to accept me for who i was. He was someone from the outside world that had hurt me so much. And he was the one who was able to bring me the most out of my life.
And he dedicated, and he’s faithful. I can see that in him better than I’ve seen in any other guy in my life. He loves me, and I love him. Its simple, but its strong. It’s one of the strongest emotions I’ve ever felt.
Sure, he can’t spell worth a damn, but I don’t mind. Spelling is the least of my worries, and it gives us laughs when I correct him.
Right now, I’m relishing in the happiness that I never thought I deserved. I always thought that I was a horrible person, but I guess David made me see that I wasn’t so bad. He gave me to understand that there wsa nothing I could do to make him abandon me. He let me know that, no matter what kind fo things troubled me, and no matter what kind of things I did, he would never let me take the burden alone.
He told me that he would always be there for me, and I believe him. Even though he is an outsider, even though he’s not a family member, and he’s not someone I’ve grown up with, I trust him more than I trust my own father.

The fact that I was able to open up my heart to him like I did, and the fact that I trust him so much is a big step for me. I don’t know if you understand how much hurt I went through, and how little I would allow myself to trust people. But somehow, he managed to worm his way into my heart, and fill a gap that I hadn’t even realized existed.
He is my everything.

“You have always deserved happiness, and a loving husband. I’m just glad that its me who makes you happy.” - The Reaper, David

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Anyway…

I’ve been really lonely lately, and I don’t really know why. I’ve been hanging out with Natalie like there’s no tomorrow, and I’ve been neglecting my duties.

My duties being, writing like I’m supposed to. I’m at a standstill with all of my stories, which is growing increasingly irritating. Eh, whatever.

By the way, has anyone else noticed that there are 2 million movies that are supposed to come out on Septmber 11th? I find that kind of hilarious. They’re almost all horror movies.

It’s really cold in my room. My feet are totally numb.

I’ve fallen in love with another couple of anime guys. Matthew(Canada), Yoo Song(Korea) and Ivan(Russia). They are all impeccably hot, and I love their personalities. I’ve fallen especially hard for Ivan, though. He is my favorite. I think that if you watched Hetalia: Axis Powers / Axis Powers Hetalia(they are the same, but people put the words in differentiating orders. Its very frustrating), then I think you’d come to appreciate Russia for his character as well. Not only is he adorable, he’s completely crazy.

There is a slight possibility that I will be getting a yukata. This one, to be exact:

Right Here

I think that its utterly gorgeous.

Anyway, I suppose its a hopefully happy birthday to me. Blah.

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The Reaper(10:51 AM 8/28): :) but i knows chu loves me
The Reaper(10:52 AM 8/28): :( least i hope
The Reaper(10:52 AM 8/28): o.o
The Reaper(11:05 AM 8/28): i hope you is ok… D: i worry alot

The Reaper is David(BF), by the way. He is adorable.

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DemonKimmie (7/31/2009 10:26:57 PM): Actually, you have no clue. She is completely self conscious and everything.
DemonKimmie (7/31/2009 10:27:03 PM): She hates herself. Its sad.
The Reaper (7/31/2009 10:27:05 PM): D:
The Reaper (7/31/2009 10:27:28 PM): -.O ima need to change that when im there
DemonKimmie (7/31/2009 10:27:52 PM): :)
DemonKimmie (7/31/2009 10:28:09 PM): I’m glad that you like Gina. ^.^ Becuase she likes you too. She thinks your adorable.
The Reaper (7/31/2009 10:28:37 PM): Yippy
DemonKimmie (7/31/2009 10:28:40 PM): ^.^
DemonKimmie (7/31/2009 10:28:55 PM): I love you, David~
The Reaper (7/31/2009 10:29:04 PM): i loves chu to..
DemonKimmie (7/31/2009 10:29:45 PM): Mama says you should ask me again after we graduate college.
The Reaper (7/31/2009 10:30:23 PM):  will do
DemonKimmie (7/31/2009 10:30:33 PM): Just don’t forgot.
The Reaper (7/31/2009 10:30:58 PM): how can i forget
The Reaper (7/31/2009 10:31:00 PM): hehe
…..
August 1st
(My status says: For the rest of my life, I commit to you.)

The Reaper: to me?
The Reaper: @_@
DemonKimmie: to you. :3
The Reaper: :)
DemonKimmie: ^.^
The Reaper: i commit to you… to
DemonKimmie: yay
The Reaper: so is that a yes to my merrage praposl?
The Reaper: @_@
The Reaper: :)
DemonKimmie: *proposal
DemonKimmie: and yes. yes it is.
The Reaper: >.>

The Reaper:  i love chu… :)
The Reaper:  :)
DemonKimmie: I love chu tu~  :)
The Reaper: ^-^
DemonKimmie: <3

…………………………………………………

Technically, doesn’t that make me engaged? :) I’m a happy person right now.

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Lets fall in the snow and laugh at the cold, pretending it’ll never end. We can play in the leaves and never forget. We’ll plant some flowers and watch them grow. Together, we can run through the summer rain, and jump in the puddles and laugh. Lets pretend this will never end, because there’s still time for one more kiss.

That’s the first one.

Lets fly higher than the sky, lets laugh like it never happened. Lets dance until the sun rises and play like we’re children. It doesn’t matter anymore because you’re all I ever needed, and you’re all I ever wanted. I’ll always be here for you, and you better be there for me. We’ll dance in the rain, play in the snow, and run through the leaves of autumn. We’ll swim through the rights and wrongs and laugh through the good and bad. Nothing can slow us down, ’cause baby, we’re in love.

~~~ Weeee ~~~

They’re alot alike, I know, but they’re still really good, right? I’m proud of myself for spewing forth such lovely works. On that note, I suppose I should tell you about what happened that I found out about today in school.

David Gross, my boyfriend, is suspended. He beat up a kid named Billy Caiati. Do you want to know why?

Billy insulted me. Right to David’s face. He was talking shit about me behind my back and to David. Both of these are stupid moves. You don’t spread rumors about Kimmie. First of all, Kimmie has backup gear,(ahem, Gina, Kasedy, David, and a few others…). Second mistake is that he said all of this to David. Not to a friend. To David. To my boyfriend, David.

So, David flipped shit on Billy. According to him, he grabbed Billy by the throat and punched his ugly face in. I have already told him that he is Gina’s hero and that I love him forever. I don’t know the percentage of guys who stick up for their girlfriends, but I don’t care. David loves me, and personally, I don’t think he had to go that far to prove it. I appreciate it though. Its nice to know that there’s someone outside my family who truly loves me.

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