Ex Nihilo

Remember, Realize, Relish in You and Me

David and I are going to get married someday; We have decided mutually on this. He is going to buy us engagement rings, and propose, and everything. He already has the approval of everyone on either side. My parents agree that he is sweet, cute, and amazing. His parents and family agree that I’m sweet, cute, and amazing.  We agree that we couldn’t be more perfect for each other if we tried. I think that he is the perfect guy; he thinks that I am the perfect girl.
I just wanted to remember and relish in the beauty that I have managed to salvage out of my rather miserable life. Even in my darkest hours, I was able to find him, and I was able to get him.
He’s made me happy, something that I could never have achieved. He helped me to accept me for who i was. He was someone from the outside world that had hurt me so much. And he was the one who was able to bring me the most out of my life.
And he dedicated, and he’s faithful. I can see that in him better than I’ve seen in any other guy in my life. He loves me, and I love him. Its simple, but its strong. It’s one of the strongest emotions I’ve ever felt.
Sure, he can’t spell worth a damn, but I don’t mind. Spelling is the least of my worries, and it gives us laughs when I correct him.
Right now, I’m relishing in the happiness that I never thought I deserved. I always thought that I was a horrible person, but I guess David made me see that I wasn’t so bad. He gave me to understand that there wsa nothing I could do to make him abandon me. He let me know that, no matter what kind fo things troubled me, and no matter what kind of things I did, he would never let me take the burden alone.
He told me that he would always be there for me, and I believe him. Even though he is an outsider, even though he’s not a family member, and he’s not someone I’ve grown up with, I trust him more than I trust my own father.

The fact that I was able to open up my heart to him like I did, and the fact that I trust him so much is a big step for me. I don’t know if you understand how much hurt I went through, and how little I would allow myself to trust people. But somehow, he managed to worm his way into my heart, and fill a gap that I hadn’t even realized existed.
He is my everything.

“You have always deserved happiness, and a loving husband. I’m just glad that its me who makes you happy.” - The Reaper, David