My Krazy Kandies

You Have Been Warned

I’m going to cut up my hands and maybe even my arms tonight. I’m telling you this ahead of time so that you aren’t surprised when it actually happens.

Also, I’m going to try to stop talking to Dad, and Derek. I don’t care what happens. I’m not speaking to those bastards anymore. They’re both incoherently idiotic, and I can not bear to give up any more of my useless time to them. I have a life outsdie of them and their idiocy. I’m not about to waste myself on them. So yeah. Don’t talk to me anymore, don’t hug me, don’t touch me, don’t try to apologize, don’t even look at me. Don’t do anything. You’ve hurt me for the last time. I’m not going to be the grown up in this situation. I’m going to be the immature brat. I’m not going to try and make amends. I’m not going to apologize for any times that I’ve hurt you two, because you sure haven’t apologized for hurting me even once in my life.

Now, I know that your going to be thinking, “Yeah I did!” But you didn’t. You said you were sorry, but did you mean even one morsel of your pathetic apology? No. You didn’t. Especially you, Derek. You never mean anything that you say. And you too Dad. You apologized for beating me when I was younger, but since your such a sadistic fuck, I doubt you regret any moment of tormenting me. You probably got hard off it, you bastard.

So yeah. That’s pretty much it. I give up. I’m done fighting, I’m done giving up my time to argue, I’m done talking to you. Don’t expect anytthing fomr me anymore. I’m not going to spend anything on you guys, whether it be money, or wether it be love or time. I’m through.

And now I’m crying, and I don’t even know why. I’m sad, and I don’t even know why. I’m not hurt by your actions. I’m not upset that I have to give up on my best friend and father. It’s not like I was ever anything important to you guys. I never really mattered to you, I’m sure.

That’s it. I’m done. I’m not going to waste anymore time on the idiots who bother to read this stupid post.

The reason of this post was actually to tell you that I’m going to cut tonight. I suppose you can just ignore the rest of it.

My Deepest Apologies

So, yeah. Daddy’s being a fucking bitch again. He yells at me because I’m starving, and need to eat, because I HAVEN’T YET, and then he yells at me again for ‘never being around.’

Actually, Dad, I’m always around. I never fucking leave the house. You told us two or three weeks ago that we would be cleaning the staircase.

And then we never did, so I went and assumed that it would never happen, because you’re a huge liar, and usally don’t do what you say you’re going to do.

And you know what’s really fucking funny? I told Derek off. He said something retarded, and I came back with ‘You’re not my fricken father.’

He shut up really fucking fast. It was actually funny, even though I’m completely pissed.

Anyway, I’m pissed off at my father right now, because he’s being an ass.

He said something, and I told him, right up front, “Sorry for having a life!” and then he yelled something else I think, but I don’t really care because I didn’t actually hear him. So yeah. He’s cleaning the stairs. I’m not going to help him. Why, you may ask? Because I don’t fucking want to. Got a problem? TOO FUCKING BAD!

So that’s it for this post. You can smnap and snarl at me later, because I really don’t care at this point.