Innocence with Bloody Hands

A Little Self-Expedition

September 22, 2008 on 9:22 pm | In Preteen Emo Syndrome, School, Sisters, Stuff | 2 Comments

I can’t get good grades

I can’t make honor roll

I can’t sleep

I can’t make myself pretty

I can’t make it through the school year

I can’t stop cutting

I can’t make it

I can’t do this anymore

I’m afraid to fail

I’m afraid to mess up

I’m afraid to cry

I’m afraid to show how I really feel

I’m afraid that you’ll hurt me

I’m afraid that I’ll die

I’m afraid of the nightmares

I’m afraid of myself

I don’t want to do this

I don’t want to pass

I don’t want to go to school

I don’t want to make honor roll

I don’t want to get good grades

I don’t want to fail

I don’t want to cry

I don’t want to hurt

I don’t want to try

I don’t want to mess up

I don’t want to make this work

I want to be alone

I want to be me

I want to cut

I want to cry

I want to be happy

I want to be angry

I want to be able to show you who I really am

I want to be able to show you how I really feel

I want to be able to show you that I’m pretty

I want to see my sister again

I want to erase everything that I don’t want

I hate myself

I hate a lot of people

I hate to cry

I hate being weak

I hate being angry

I hate being happy

I hate hiding who I really am

I hate hiding how I really feel

I hate not being able to sleep

I wish I had been able to tell you all of this sooner

I wish my life were better

I wish I didn’t have nightmares

I wish I could sleep

I wish I wasn’t so stupid

I wish I could cry

I wish I wasn’t guilty of so many things

I wish I could show you how I really feel

I wish I could show you who I really am

I wish I was pretty

I wish I could get grades

I wish I could make honor roll

I wish I could make mama proud

I wish I could make Gina happy

I wish I was a nicer person

I wish I wasn’t so miserable

I wish I had never gone to Sidney Center school

I wish I had never had to change schools

I wish I didn’t need your help

I wish I was normal

I wish I was happy

I wish I didn’t scare everyone

I’m sorry for hurting you

I’m sorry for scaring you

I’m sorry for making you cry

I’m lost, and I don’t think I’ll ever be found

I wish you understood me

Ozone Depletion

September 14, 2008 on 12:35 pm | In Around the Web, School, Stuff | 2 Comments

Wow, Mr. Chapin has really taught me alot. Like, for example, I learned that the real reason for Ozone Depletion is because we used to be constantly releasing chlorofluorocarnbons(CFC) into the air. This was first discovered in 1954, or 1956, I can’t remember.

Anyway, the CFC molecules are really bad for the ozone layer. They break up the ozone molecules, and turn them into groups of two, when they were originally groups of three and four. Also, the Ozone is actually smog. You know, the pollution that you find in L.A.? That kind of smog makes up the Ozone layer. Its really unhealthy for our lungs, but it protects us from things like Ultra Violet rays(UV rays).

In fact, in Australia, and New Zealand, and Antarctic the Ozone layer is so thin, the skin cancer rate is twenty times worse than it is in the US. Can you believe that? Twenty time!! That’s alot incase, you didn’t know. In fact, that’s a TON! People can’t leave their houses for more than fifteen minutes before they’re starting to get sunburn. can you imagine how horrid it’d be after half an hour?

Alright. You’re probably wondering where CFC comes from about now. Well, I’ll be honest. I don’t know where it comes from, but I DO know where you can find it. Inside of a refrigerator, and an air conditioner, there are these tubes filled with CFC. Now, back in the day, before you were born most likely (between the founding of refrigerators and 1954/56) they used to crush refrigerators and air conditioners without a care. THey didn’t know that, by crushing the air conditioners and refrigerators, they were releasing CFC gases into the air. These CFCs would go up into the air, and mess around with the Ozone layer. The ozone molecules have three of themselves stuck together. That’s what makes the Ozone. The CFC molecules would go around the Ozone layer, and seperate the Ozone molecules, so that they were only two of them in one group.

But I already told you that, I just realized.

Anyway, a while ago, they realized what this was doing to the Ozone layer, and made a new law. Every refrigerator and air conditioner now has their CFC tubes removed and recycled. THEN the appliance is destroyed.

It will take a really long time, but the Ozone will replenish itself. We just have to let it. So, we have changed our ways, and are working on making sure that no more CFC gases can get into the air. Scientists belive that by 2050 the Ozone will be almost fully replenished.

Hurray for Mr. Chapin, the father of Chinmaster, aka, The Chin, aka, Sexy Chin.

Well, that’s all from me.

Fascinated NYASH!

Kimmie~

Birthdays and wows.

September 3, 2008 on 8:32 pm | In Around the Web, Preteen Emo Syndrome, Rants of the Devilette, Sisters, WOW | 2 Comments

This one is mine; I needed a homo because your gay, and I love marijuana.

Gina’s; I slapped a porn star because that bitch stole my taco and I have AMAZING boobs.

What’s yours?

pick the month you were born
1 (Jan) - I ran naked with
2 (Feb) -I shot
3 (Mar) - I stabbed
4 (Apr) - I killed
5 (May) - I jumped
6 (June)- I smoked with
7 (July) - I ran shirtless with
8 (Aug) - I cuddled with
9 (Sept) - I needed
10 (Oct) - I robbed
11 (Nov) -I slapped
12 (Dec) - I banged

Pick the day (number) you were born on

01 - the trojan man
02 - a homeless guy
03 -a homo
04 - A mop
05 - Barney the dinosaur
06 - a rock star
07 - a whore
08 - a tooth brush
09 - my lover
10 - my boyfriend
11 - a glass of milk
12 - a teletubby
13 - the cookie monster
14 - a drunk
15 - a crack head
16 - a cat
17 - a bum
18 - Paris Hilton
19 - a condom
20 - a stripper
21 - a porn star
22 - a dog
23 - the kool-aid man
24 - a lesbian
25 - a hottie
26 - my ex girlfriend
27 - a french frya
28 - a bag of weed
29 - an Easter egg
30 - a bowl of cereal
31 - jezzy the snowman

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing

White - because that bitch stole my taco
Black - because I love marijuana
Pink - because I’m good in bed
Red - because I have AMAZING boobs
brown- because I like to snort cocaine
Polka Dots - because I hate my life
Purple - because your gay
Grey - because I’m sexy like that
Other - because I have double D’s
Green -because I still love him
Orange - because I smoke crack
Turquoise - because I have a noodle in my nose
blue - because I’m so sexy
Tye dye- because I’m a fucking scuba diver!

Also, I didn’t get my fucking cake today, because daddy’s a fricken lameass, and couldn’t follow through with a promise if it meant the death of everyone he loved.

I’m so mad at him. Becaues HE’S too FUCKING HOOKED ON THAT STUPIUD COMPUTER JOB, I have to suffer. Where is the fairness in that? We made a DEAL RIGHT BEHIND MAMA, and he was actually going to FOLLOW THROUGH WITH IT.

AND THEN HE DIDN”T.

I WANT TO KILL HIM.

Actually, at the moment, I really want to cry, but I’m trying not to, because Its not pretty when ugly losers like me cry. XP ew.

Anyway, I’m going to rp yaoi and porn with ALexandra, and hopefully, I’ll feel better by tomorrow. I’ll bitch Daddy out at Doug.

DAD YOUR NOT GOING WITH ME TO DOUG’S TOMORROW. I DON”T WANT YOU TO HEAR HOW PISSED I AM AT YOU FOR BEING AN ASS.

Thank you for your time, which I probably just WASTED TOTALLY.

DON”T FORGET TO DO THE THING AT THE TOP~ ^>^

Some words of …stuff

September 2, 2008 on 8:03 pm | In Rants of the Devilette, Stuff | 2 Comments

Tomorrow is the first day of school. NOt looking forward to it.

I have to make honor role every semester, because mama is abusive and horrible.

…anyway, tomorrow is also my birthday. Mama’s making my cake by hand, without those delicious sugary junk food that is so yummy…

Okay righto. I’m hooked on somenew song, and I haven’t been able to sleep for the past five days. It really sucks, because staying up all night is really boring.

That’s it for the worst update ever.

Goodnight.