Ex Nihilo

I Will Always Love You

August 26, 2007 on 7:11 pm | In Stuff | Comments Off

Gina just went to college today. This sucks. I hate (almost) everything. I’m tired, I wanna cry, I can’t cry, Gina isn’t here, I don’t know anything anymore, Gina isn’t here, I’m falling apart from the inside out, Gina’s not here, I want to go back and bring her home, and Gina isn’t here.

I’m dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming.

Am I too lost, to be saved? Am I too lost?!

I really didn’t to have to say goodbye. So I didn’t. I didn’t even fucking hug her! I am so mad at myself! That’s like saying ‘going is more than Gina’! I hate myself completely officially. I deserve to die. I fail at life. I suck. Gina’s probably crying. I bet she’s so lonely… I want to see her!!!!!! I want to camp out under her fricken’ bed! I hate myself. I’m not ready to have her leave! and I probably won’t be for a long ass time. I’m screwed. I hate my life. I fail at everything.

Don’t make me close one more door

I don’t wanna hurt anymore

I hurt so much right. I’m probably going to hardest time EVER falling asleep tonight. This sucks so bad. I hate everything. Not everyONE, but everyTHING. I can’t live with you, Gina! COME HOME, DAMN IT!!! SHANNARROOOOOO!!!!!!

I’m going to cry. I hate myself. I deserve to die. Literally.

Don’t walk away from me…

I have nothing, nothing, nothing

If I don’t have you… you… you… you…

Depressed Nyash

Kimmie~

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You showed me

When I was young just how to grow

You showed me

Everything that I should know

You showed me

Just how to walk without your hands…..

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I’m sorry I didn’t say good-bye Gina! I love you so much! I won’t be okay until late or mid November!

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~Take these Broken Wings, and learn to Fly~